“Don’t be a double agent, you will always get caught.” -Anonymous
I have made this saying one of my life mottos. It refers to how you live your life, you can’t be a double agent. In the bible it talks about being lukewarm. You can’t be Luke warm, you are either hot or cold. It also talks about how a servant can’t serve two masters. I’ve really been struggling with this because I am a different person at school to who I am at church and at home. It’s not major differences but rather minor differences. The thing is these minor differences buildup and become major you know.
Yesterday I had a really bad day as well. I usually am positive about thing like this. But to be honest it really was a bad day. I wrote a bad test in the morning, whilst I was crossing the road on my way home this lady came out of nowhere (may I add that she was driving way over the speed limit) and nearly ran me over. And something that I had been looking forward to for a couple of weeks was cancelled. I don’t like complaining but it really was a bad day.
I’m also going through a pretty tough time. I often ask myself how do you continue when there’s nothing left. Do I go to the right where nothing is left or do I go to the left where nothing is right? There are times when I honestly don’t know how I survive. The hardest thing for me has been learning to fully trust God and give it all to him. As humans we want to have control over everything but the reality is that this is not always possible. Trust me I’ve learnt the long way.
Lastly I am now on holiday so I can actually rest. I know that the beginning of this year I haven’t been blogging regularly and I haven’t been blogging a variety. I promise that I am working on that. It’s just been very hectic but one of my goals for the new term is to be more organized with my blogging and plan properly. So I leave you with this:
“We must not allow other people’s limited perceptions to define us.” -Stephen Hawking