Lately I haven’t felt like spending time with the Lord. This is unusual for me as I’m usually very on fire for God, and I’ve had to learning that sometimes you have to do things you don’t want to. I am definitely still learning this.
In life we have seasons: summer, autumn, winter and spring. The moon goes from a full moon to a new moon and all the phases in between. The ocean has high tides and low tides. Everything has seasons and phases. The same goes with life and our spiritual lives.
You cannot always be in the same season and as much as this is for you this is probably an even bigger reminder for me. I read this quote by Steven Furtick that says, “Passion is a choice, not a feeling.” You cannot always be on a high in your spiritual life, you cannot always be 100% with the Lord but you can always make a choice.
You can choose to pursue Him, to have your devotion, you can choose passion even when you don’t feel like it. Because sometimes you have to do things you don’t ‘feel’ like doing. You cannot be lead 100% by feelings because sometimes what you ‘feel’ like doing is not what you should do.
Another poem I read that I thought is so relevant is:
“Life is unpredictable,
It changes with the seasons,
Even your coldest winter,
Happens for the best of reasons,
And though it feels eternal,
Like all you’ll ever do is freeze,
I promise spring is coming,
And with it, brand new leaves.” – e.h.
The beauty about seasons and phases is that they don’t last forever. Spring will always come after Winter and the beauty of Spring is worth the pain and cold of winter. Just as you cannot have Spring without Winter, you cannot have beautiful flowers without thunderstorms and you cannot have peaceful oceans without raging waves.
So, yes even though I’m not going through a summer in my spiritual life it’s okay. All seasons pass and this one will too. And I’m going to choose passion and choose God even though it’s hard at times because Spring is coming, and with it brand new leaves.