I’ve always liked how things sound in French, every word sounds beautiful. I mean savage is un savage and lumière is light.
I have a ton of ideas and sometimes just start things. I mean last year around about this time I just started my YouTube channel without any equipment other than my phone and laptop. However I don’t always finish or see the things I start to the end, thus when this project came to mind I was very weary of starting it.
I don’t remember exactly what day it was but I had a few days between my last three exams and something just clicked in me. Life is so stinking short friends and I realized that I’m not content with my life. Don’t get me wrong I have my good days and bad days like everyone else, I have an amazing life and most of the times I’m happy with my life but I haven’t been content with where I am. I am a single girl and the world is my oyster but I was wasting days not being content and comparing my life to others’.
I hadn’t been on social media in a month and a half-ish (another post for another day) when I got this idea and when I went onto Instagram after my exams I realized 2 things:
- Firstly the world lives on without you and to be real most people don’t care if you haven’t posted in a long time or liked their post in a while. What others post on Instagram will still be there in 6 months or 6 years and you don’t need to see it immediately.
- Secondly I realized that the numbers of followers I have doesn’t matter, they were dropping slightly from my lack of posting but I had gotten to a point where I really didn’t care. I mean I value my Instagram account and care about it and my followers but if people are unfollowing me then so be it.
So the project is called project lumière. It means project light. I wrestled with other names like the sunshine project, project Kiyah, the happiness project, project la lumière and a couple others but ultimately settled on the name I have now. The goal of the project is simple: to become fully content in myself and as a result be the light. I have some ideas of things that I’m going to do like choosing to do things that bring me joy, spending time with the Lord everyday and having pretty stationery but it can’t just be a surface level change. It has to be a heart change and lifestyle change. I don’t know how long this is going to be for and what it’s going to become but I wanted a way to document it and so I will put it on here for you to read. I also started an Instagram Page for it (@theprojectlumiere).
This project is something that I have thought about deeply, wrestled with and prayed about. I am inviting you, friend, to have an inside glimpse into a really personal part of my life. Life is way to stinking short to not be content and full of joy. Roald Dahl said: “Those who don’t believe in magic will never find it.” I am finding my magic and it might be messy and it’s taking a step into the unknown but why the hell not.